Childhood fear

I have no idea why but i'm really very afraid of tiny circular substances when i was young. It makes me feel very icky and i just can/t help keeping my eyes away from it. Sometimes when i have allergies on my hand, i just feel like scrapping off my skin instead of torturing myself looking at it. Although i'm afraid of all theses circular things, i forced myself to look at overgrown cancerous cells. Those that are in a ball form. I believe there is nothing that i can't overcome and I the cells actually doesn't irritate me that much. I even enlarged the pictures to take a closer look at it. That's how crazy i am.
Besides that, I was always afraid of the dark when i was young. I shifted to my new home when i was 7 and i actually have my own room. I was always very afraid to sleep alone and needed my dads accompany. Until when i was 8 or 9, my dad eventually stopped accompanying me. I could sleep but every night before I fall into deep sleeps, I would have to wrap myself in the blanket like a wantan. Of course i've grown up now and i'm not too afraid of the dark anymore.
I remember when i was 8, I watched a Thailand horror movie ALONE. At first, i remember watching it with my dad but after that when i looked around,there was no one but me. I had no idea why but i stood still in front of the television. Well of course i freaked out after that and I don't watch horror movies till now and I don't think i would every watch any anymore.
I don't really like going to the cinema too, I even cried when i was watching cars...and of course other shows like narnia and harry potter but of course I don't cry now.

Journal

Its been quite some time since I've posted a new entry. I  was really busy recently. There had been choir practices for the whole month. I feel that my voice is almost gone but I think it was really worth it. We won in the 1st competition and will be representing Selangor state for the national competition that will be held soon in Johor in September. Even though we won in the 1st competition, us seniors now that it wouldn't  be easy for the next competition. The juniors didn't understand tat and they rode on our victory and thinking that we were really good and very much expected, we got 3rd. The cluster school Nazir's came to our school and told us:' If you want to be the niche program. You will have to maintain your results and continue to achieve results that you had been achieving for the past few years.' This really gave all of us lots of pressure especially our teacher adviser. She had worked so hard to bring us up there and if we had made 1 wrong move, everything will be going down the drain and our past successes will be gone to waste. We were really very afraid. We worked really hard in order to maintain our standards. I've almost teared for every single rehearsal when there was mistakes or some minor issues. I really can't help it. I hold back because I knew that my pressure wouldn't be as bad as the teacher's and the deputies. All the teams were really very good. We were all very worried. Even though we knew we were good, we just can't help worrying. We did our best and the results were really very satisfying. We did it. We won...Everything paid off...Thank god...We won 1st and we won the best conductor prize. I even broke both my heels when we were announced as the champion. Love HYC!

Discrimination essay.

It is clearly seen in the society that prejudice lies within everyone and discrimination happens everyday in our daily life. There are many types of prejudice and a few very obvious examples are the race, sex, religion and many others. Prejudice is the way we think of others. I guess we had actually discussed about this in the classroom so I will not say something as shallow as this. How do we stop having prejudices towards others is how we can stop discrimination. It starts of from us treating all humans the same as one and another. Of course all humans should be responsible of their own act and don't make others fear off you. We should stop thinking of people the way we assumed it is. Try voicing out our own opinions towards others and get a reasonable answer for whatever that is confusing or bothering you. Its not their fault that they were born different from others. They can think of us as normal humans and yet we think of them as abnormal people. Why do 'normal' people like us have to have prejudice towards others? Aren't we abnormal to think that they are abnormal? Make a change. Don't ask what others can do for you but rather what you can do for others. Its difficult to satisfy the billions and millions of people in the whole world but you could at least start from satisfying yourself. Start correcting your own mind perception and don't have stereotype or scapegoats within our souls. Discrimination would not live within humans if everyone think like that and do a little for others.

results....

This term's results certainly wasn't good. I've got all my 60+ and 70+ but only 1 83 and 1 90. Its really quite miserable. I really think I should work harder but I've never tried studying in my whole life. Its been 15 years since I 1st started learning but had not even once tried to study. Everyone is trying so hard to achieve good results and yet I am still slacking without thinking of my own future. I thought I would at least be able to apply for a scholarship but in the end i ended up only getting 3 As. Its really sad to see that. I wonder what will my mum's reaction be when she sees my results. I really hope she doesn't get too mad. Today is the 1st day I tried buying something more than RM50 on my own. Usually I will buy things under my mum's supervision but today I did it myself. It felt quite alright but I still prefer my mum;s company. At least she will be able to give me advice about the product and I wouldn't have to pay for it. Its quite fun to buy stuff on my own too. Really have to thank this friend of mine. I really enjoyed my day. Thank you.

1st week of holiday

Its the 1st week of holidays. I started my holidays with very interesting programs. First,  I went to Malaysia's Choral Festival. Its their 10th anniversary. It was really interesting. The songs that were given were not only usual songs that we sing but music scores with graphics and so on. I had learnt a lot of new things through this workshop. We sang some weird songs like the 20th century contemporary music which no audience understood. They started at those that were performing when my friends were performing. I missed the performance because i had to attend my dad's cousin's daughter's wedding dinner. I don't realy know them but what to do. We are considered as relatives too. On 27th of May is 1 of my friend's birthday. I really cherish this friend and I hope we will continue to sing together, have fun together and be friends forever. She may not be very close to me as she is just to popular but I hope I will always be there for her whenever she needs me because I just know too much about her. Her sister's death 1 year ago made him really sad. She seems to be fine now but i guess she still can't really walk out from darkness. I hope I could help her and may god bless her. Happy birthday...

article

Dear editor,

I as a citizen of Malaysia would like to comment on a few inconsiderate issues of Malaysia citizens.
Firstly, Malaysian smokers smoke in public. Not only that, they smoke in air conditioned places or enclosed areas such as the non-smoking rooms, elevators and so on.
Besides that, the people in Malaysia do not have the perception of being clean. They spit everywhere they go and they litter every possible place except the garbage bins.
Furthermore, last week when i was happily enjoying my movie in the cinema, a phone suddenly rang and there came a loud voice talking on the phone.
Next, I went of for dinner and I saw the table next to me having a reunion dinner with their ex-school mates. Their phones cant stop ringing and all of them seems to be busy entertaining their phones.
Lastly, I went out with my family members for food last Sunday. While we were peacefully having our dinner, the kids of the table next to us started running around and making a lot of noise. Not long after that, the parents started quarreling and in the end, our peaceful dinner went to waste.
These are the few inconsiderate acts i would like to complaint about. I hope to see a better environment. Thank you.

Regards,
Chia Min  

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I've skipped class for 1 week and might continue to skip class for the next week. I had participated in some poem recital competition and I practiced for the whole week. I trained the juniors and told them how to deliver their piece. They did not did their best during the competition but at least they tried and I'm really happy to have the chance to coach them. I got 2nd and they got 4th. I am quite satisfied with my results as I did not get any award last year. 1st was someone from Katholik High. She was a really good friend of mine. I really love her and I feel that it is alright to lose to her. Eventhough I am satisfied with my results I still hope I could get into the states competition. I hope they could make me an exception and let me in.