Childhood fear

I have no idea why but i'm really very afraid of tiny circular substances when i was young. It makes me feel very icky and i just can/t help keeping my eyes away from it. Sometimes when i have allergies on my hand, i just feel like scrapping off my skin instead of torturing myself looking at it. Although i'm afraid of all theses circular things, i forced myself to look at overgrown cancerous cells. Those that are in a ball form. I believe there is nothing that i can't overcome and I the cells actually doesn't irritate me that much. I even enlarged the pictures to take a closer look at it. That's how crazy i am.
Besides that, I was always afraid of the dark when i was young. I shifted to my new home when i was 7 and i actually have my own room. I was always very afraid to sleep alone and needed my dads accompany. Until when i was 8 or 9, my dad eventually stopped accompanying me. I could sleep but every night before I fall into deep sleeps, I would have to wrap myself in the blanket like a wantan. Of course i've grown up now and i'm not too afraid of the dark anymore.
I remember when i was 8, I watched a Thailand horror movie ALONE. At first, i remember watching it with my dad but after that when i looked around,there was no one but me. I had no idea why but i stood still in front of the television. Well of course i freaked out after that and I don't watch horror movies till now and I don't think i would every watch any anymore.
I don't really like going to the cinema too, I even cried when i was watching cars...and of course other shows like narnia and harry potter but of course I don't cry now.

Journal

Its been quite some time since I've posted a new entry. I  was really busy recently. There had been choir practices for the whole month. I feel that my voice is almost gone but I think it was really worth it. We won in the 1st competition and will be representing Selangor state for the national competition that will be held soon in Johor in September. Even though we won in the 1st competition, us seniors now that it wouldn't  be easy for the next competition. The juniors didn't understand tat and they rode on our victory and thinking that we were really good and very much expected, we got 3rd. The cluster school Nazir's came to our school and told us:' If you want to be the niche program. You will have to maintain your results and continue to achieve results that you had been achieving for the past few years.' This really gave all of us lots of pressure especially our teacher adviser. She had worked so hard to bring us up there and if we had made 1 wrong move, everything will be going down the drain and our past successes will be gone to waste. We were really very afraid. We worked really hard in order to maintain our standards. I've almost teared for every single rehearsal when there was mistakes or some minor issues. I really can't help it. I hold back because I knew that my pressure wouldn't be as bad as the teacher's and the deputies. All the teams were really very good. We were all very worried. Even though we knew we were good, we just can't help worrying. We did our best and the results were really very satisfying. We did it. We won...Everything paid off...Thank god...We won 1st and we won the best conductor prize. I even broke both my heels when we were announced as the champion. Love HYC!

Discrimination essay.

It is clearly seen in the society that prejudice lies within everyone and discrimination happens everyday in our daily life. There are many types of prejudice and a few very obvious examples are the race, sex, religion and many others. Prejudice is the way we think of others. I guess we had actually discussed about this in the classroom so I will not say something as shallow as this. How do we stop having prejudices towards others is how we can stop discrimination. It starts of from us treating all humans the same as one and another. Of course all humans should be responsible of their own act and don't make others fear off you. We should stop thinking of people the way we assumed it is. Try voicing out our own opinions towards others and get a reasonable answer for whatever that is confusing or bothering you. Its not their fault that they were born different from others. They can think of us as normal humans and yet we think of them as abnormal people. Why do 'normal' people like us have to have prejudice towards others? Aren't we abnormal to think that they are abnormal? Make a change. Don't ask what others can do for you but rather what you can do for others. Its difficult to satisfy the billions and millions of people in the whole world but you could at least start from satisfying yourself. Start correcting your own mind perception and don't have stereotype or scapegoats within our souls. Discrimination would not live within humans if everyone think like that and do a little for others.